Tuesday, January 15, 2008

I Didn't Deserve It...PERIOD

Note: Contains discussion of feminine issues.

So, this past week did NOT go well. While I exercised, the only calories I counted were guesstimates and not recorded anywhere but my fuzzy head. Sunday's Ward Potluck, Monday's Family Home Evening Treats, and this morning's hangover eating didn't help much, either. Needless to say, my eating has been less than stellar.

To make matters worse, I started my pseudo-period on Sunday. After having a baby it usually takes about a year-and-a-half before I have a period and even then it's irregular and light for a while. Lucky, I know (except when I want to be pregnant). With Kelsey I worried all the time that I was pregnant, with Genevieve I worried less, and with Shelley I've been enjoying it entirely. I've probably had less than 20 cycles since getting married almost 11 years ago. It's a good thing, too, because I make a VERY cranky PMS-er. Still, it sure does make getting pregnant a whole lot easier ;)

While this explains the weekend cravings, it does not excuse them. AND, it lead to Monday Munching Madness and already Totally Terrible Tuesday. I've eaten everything in our house and have tried to lay Shelley down for a nap three times so I can exercise (or so I say), but to no avail.

I want to quit. I want to give in. Actually, it's too late -- I already have.

So, now what?

Well, I need to write down what I eat, at least for a while. I don't know if this will be a lifetime practice, but it is essential for me to reach my goals. I need to detox for the rest of today and tomorrow. Most importantly, I need to relax. If I have one good day of eating, I usually feel better. I can do this, I can do this, I can do this (instead of clicking my heels three times, I'm smacking my lips...where's Glinda when I need her?).

As for my weigh-in, I really didn't deserve the number. I waited until after I exercised because I just couldn't face the scale. After the feeding frenzy of yesterday and today, next week will be harsh without better eating the rest of the week. Anyway, here it is:

Current Weight: 148.0
Current BMI: 23.0

PS Sorry about the delay in posting ~ Brady did our taxes last night. Go Brady!


julie said...

It's just tough on a body to be a woman, isn't it? We have childbirth, our cycle, emotional issues, and to top it all off, we just don't lose weight as easily as men, on the whole. And we're expected to look beautiful all the time, when a man can get away with a lot more in the looks department. Okay, I didn't mean to go off like that, but you're allowed to have an off day or two or ten! We all understand these issues! :)

awcoburn said...

Sorry to hear about your bad week, Kari. Here's my new weight loss secret: get so stressed out and busy that you lose your appetite. It's worked like a charm for me these past 2 weeks. Too bad I'll probably die of a heart attack when I'm 32 at this rate.
I'll have to give you a call this week and we can rant to each other.

awcoburn said...

Oh, and faster internet connection: Hot diggity!

Liza said...

Erin and I are on the same schedule as you--only I have had like 9 million cycles in our 11 yrs and I too get moody. I bet your marriage benefits.

KariAnn said...

One problem with no cycle: You have nothing to blame your normal moodiness on!